Captured Moments

When we have experienced trauma, it is like a tree being hit by lightening.  Many of the rings in the tree are affected, effected and impacted.  The trauma is experienced at the time.  It can prevent the tree from growing and going in its right direction and even halting the expected  growth of the tree from it's roots. Theses 'rings of fear' can go out and traumatize the tree for years to come unless and until we consciously go in and recalibrate the trauma and the consequent fear. We do this by becoming as conscious as we can of our trauma.   Even digging through the emotions of it as far as we can.  Think of getting a sliver of wood in your arm.  It hurts at the time and maybe we forget about it or ignore it or dismiss it.  So it continues to go deeper so now we hide the arm from others and begin to think we did something wrong.  We'd rather deny that sliver got in there to begin with than to turn and face it.  Now, maybe it is infected and truly feeling it and exper

When we were  developing into adulthood, we may have had a strong aspect to our personality.  Something we knew, understood, had developed previously or had an instinct for. We may have arrived into our family of origin, carrying this  strength for ourselves or the family.  When we  exposed or expressed this strong suit, members of our family may have pushed back, criticized, judged, rejected or devalued us, making us doubt ourselves.  In that self-doubt, perhaps we stopped sharing our inherent strength because the people closest to us would not, could not hear it or accept us.  We were not well received, believed or conceived of knowing anything else to be true but what they knew.  Therefore, sub-consciously or unconsciously, we were instead programmed by what those before us knew.  Not only knew but what they were expecting to see in us, hear in us, witness in us, reflecting their limitations.  As we then played out the roles and rules imposed on us, reflecting society, our families,

Seeking, finding and understanding our own inner and surrounding LIGHT, we can  develop an awareness to receive clarity and consciousness, which enables us to understand even more about life, love and ourselves.  Another feature of our own LIGHT is to uncover our own shadowy idea of our self; which enables us to see what we may have stuffed away, hidden from ourselves and others.  This may have been due to a wound, a trauma, family denial, old ancestral pain or deep confusion regarding the past.  According to Carl Jung, the Swiss Psychologist, once our unconscious self comes to LIGHT, it cannot return to the darkness again.  He goes on to discuss archetypes that we may have adopted to get to and through our life.  Perhaps we are acting them out because we adapted to them to help us cope and survive.  We  also have sub-personalities that we may have created, too, based on our personalities.  For example, if our parents loved our sense of humor and therefore it was reinforced by our fami

When we are born, our human systems are fresh and new, untainted.  We are innocent and open, in a pure form!  As we grow and develop,  however, we begin to take on the taint of those around us and, in time, we begin to think that is who we are because we feel it as us. Think of a fresh, clean open pond.  You have just cleaned it out and put in fresh water, a new filter and scraped off anything old and unnecessary. You see it as fresh and sparkling.  The next day, you get up and look  outside and now there are sticks, rocks and leaves in it.  What has happened is your cleaned out area is now tainted by what has affected it!  It needs cleaning, clearing out again so it can return to its natural clear state and full function as a pond. We are the same.  When we have been tainted by the taint of others, as found in ancestral pain, for example, we can be cluttered up by another's taint, which does not belong to us.  Maybe our families have  alcoholics, maybe drug users, perhaps bank rob