Captured Moments

After we find our own INNER LIGHT and the causes for any wounding along the way, an awareness arises.  We are NOT actually the Wound or the responding LIGHT.  We are aware of them both and how one may have facilitated the other.  Like any two extremes, the middle road will appear and it is the one to travel.  The middle road is our emerging SELF, the one who knows.  This Self of the Soul carries the wisdom of both aspects of what we have ultimately experienced in our life.   The wound is often the friction that polishes the stone.  From birth to adulthood, we are carried like waves on the surf.  Parents are usually our first and best teachers and the ones who have agreed to carry us along with love, affection, care and feeding.  We learn to color inside the lines and to shift and change and adapt to their ways, their expectations and their ideas of who THEY think we are.  They provide the context and structure for us to define ourselves and that gives us the needed and necessary founda

When our human system is impacted by abuse, whether it is physical, emotional, mental, intellectual or even spiritual, we not only feel the impact but then we can become it.  We can absorb the impact and let it fester away for a long, long time.  In that case, we are, in effect, lying and denying how it actually affected us. Not only that, but we can turn it in on ourselves and let it further torture us, fearing that we deserved it, made it happen, so we may actually become the abuse and it's consequences.  This is an easy unconscious thinking and feeling pattern after experiencing it but it not the truth.  We can certainly feel like it is true.  It was a true experience for us, to us, hurting and impacting us, possibly changing our behaviors, sense of self and even our  natural ability sets that we naturally use as we naturally operate. Think of a wood bee.  The wood bees find a worn out area in the wood, perhaps on a wooden deck railing.  They drill into the wood on the railing.

When we are young, we are initially programmed by our parents.  They see a male child, certain programming comes into play.  They receive a female child and perhaps another set of programming happens.  This is, of course, based on what the parents and grandparents before them have known, learned and experienced. For example, if the family has always owned a farm.  Generations have, in fact, owned that farm.  The males have most likely been operating the heavy equipment, putting in the long days and working tirelessly.  The females have had the children, cooked the meals and kept the household running.  The children for generations have witnessed this division of labor and most likely been programmed to follow suit in some way or form, based initially on their biology, their sexual identification. Often, this could be unconscious. As we grow and develop and look for our path in life, with all that parental programming, we usually follow suit unconsciously until or unless, another path s

Our wonderful, wonderful human physical bodies are extraordinary.  How our parents, grandparents, siblings, teachers, neighbors, extended family and friends mirror to us, throughout our development, and scaffold our learning about how to use, further develop, modify and create with our mental, intellectual, emotional, spiritual and psychological aspects as we embrace, enhance, utilize all we have come into this 'earth walk' with is all extraordinary.  At many times and points in the life, we can always stop and find gratitude for all that life has shown us and how we have grown. Yes, life can also send us barriers, heart break, confusion, devastation, deep hurt, profound loss and great fear.  Cruelty, abuse, intended harm exists in this world, too.  Lust, greed, false power, hatred, rage, violence, too.  Energetically, they can all be the 'friction that polishes our rock' until we emerge our strongest, most resilient selves.  They can also have an affect, effect and inf

As we grow, develop and mature as human beings, we are under the influence of our parents, grandparents, siblings, friends, neighbors and teachers.  They help  scaffold our learning and awareness.  They can become the friction that polishes our rock, so to speak!  They carry our rocks downstream, until we can stand on our own two feet! They get us to the goal, which is independence and a sense of freedom, secure that we have the skills, knowledge and maturity we need, going forward. Once on our own, we take that accrued and applied wisdom, knowledge and awareness and continue on our own towards even greater development and awareness, if we remain open and willing to learn!  We can unconsciously or  subconsciously become our parents ideas of us or become what we think they would prefer until or unless we continue to transform through greater growth and aspiration. As we go, we can attach and identify with various aspects of ourselves that will most likely relate to mom or dad, a grandpa

Our minds are capable of a lot of thoughts that can speed through at any given time!  Maybe our minds have gone spinning through our past, have raced ahead into our future, has decided to visit old foes just to play out some kind of continued rage!  If we aren’t aware of what our minds are capable of doing or thinking or functioning as, at any given time, how can we possibly understand that we can actually train our brain to behave itself! We are actually not our minds, we are the presence that is aware of it! That presence that we are, is capable of disciplining our minds when our ‘trains of thought’ have pulled out of the station and are taking us along on their journey!  When we focus on the current day, centered and focused, it is easier to request the mind just stay put!  Relish in our freedom to not be directed by it! As we grow and develop, we can unconsciously pick up thinking styles from our parents and other adults in the environment!  A worries mother, a fretful father, a de