World View Perspective: How abuse can be a double edged sword
When our human system is impacted by abuse, whether it is physical, emotional, mental, intellectual or even spiritual, we not only feel the impact but then we can become it. We can absorb the impact and let it fester away for a long, long time. In that case, we are, in effect, lying and denying how it actually affected us. Not only that, but we can turn it in on ourselves and let it further torture us, fearing that we deserved it, made it happen, so we may actually become the abuse and it's consequences. This is an easy unconscious thinking and feeling pattern after experiencing it but it not the truth. We can certainly feel like it is true. It was a true experience for us, to us, hurting and impacting us, possibly changing our behaviors, sense of self and even our natural ability sets that we naturally use as we naturally operate. Think of a wood bee. The wood bees find a worn out area in the wood, perhaps on a wooden deck railing. They drill into the wood on the railing.