As we grow, mature and develop, we have human experiences that hurt us and/or harm us on some levels and layers, effecting and impacting, who we are. Maybe they are slight offenses between two people, major betrayals of trust by those we love or an ongoing sense of being rejected, unwanted or completely dismissed and left out. Perhaps they affect us physically, emotionally, psychologically, mentally or intellectually. In any case, we can hold in the actual feeling of what happened to us for fear it will happen again or might always happen. After years of holding in the pain, confusion, resulting anger, even to the point of self-hate, we can forget it is even there. We can effectively and efficiently, hide our self from our self. Until or unless, we have it revealed to our self by our self or someone else says or does something to trigger it. Then that old stuck stuff can begin to pulsate into an angry response, enough to torch a small town! Why has this happened? Because it is time to 'pop the pimple', and begin the honest healing of it.
If you imagine getting a thorn in your arm and you ignore it. When it feels agitated, you pay no attention to it or you just attempt to tolerate it. As the infection grows, it becomes distorted, swollen, awkward and disfigured. Still in pulsating pain and still we do nothing to offset what has occurred. At some point, when we want to use that arm, we are going to have to turn, face it, feel the discomfort and always face the fact we ignored it, creating even more problems.
Deep inside our human awareness, I think we always know when we are hurt, harmed or attacked and consequently, suffering. We might blame someone else for the difficulties or blame the past, in general, but if we truly want to clean it up and clear it out, we must have the courage and determination to 'pop the pimple.'
If we imagine having a pimple on our face but we don't want to look at it, it can grow and fill with pus and blood, becoming infected. Other people can see it and we can feel it everyday. Yet, if we aren't brave enough to stop and take time to pop it, let it become exposed and then allow it to heal, it doesn't have a chance to get better and disappear!
Forgiving someone is like that, too, especially forgiving our self. We don't want to go down deep into the past age old muck and mire to flush it clean but when we do, miracles of love and healing can help us progress.
When we access the Cosmic Consciousness, we can use it like the light on a miner's hat, going deep underground. We can ask our inner guidance to show us into the dark tunnels of our system, where the pimples of the past lie in the shadows, relatively undisturbed. We can also ask Guidance to show us how best to lance it and let it pop open. We can be grateful for our courage to undergo this process. Once popped, allow the infection time to come out and be exposed and expressed in order to release it, forgive it and all connected to it until you feel at peace with it. It is no longer a trigger point.
This process also allows an opening for more Cosmic Consciousness to enter and shine into us more of who we are inside. With that LOVING opening to greater LOVE, TRUTH and COMPASSION, we feel more filled with Light and Love and overall Understanding, which enhances both our spiritual and human growth! It is a LOVING gift of Source, which brings us more Lovingly into the present, ready to LOVE LIFE,our selves and others once again. LOVING OUR SELVES is GOOD because LOVING OUR SELF IS ALSO THE INFINITE'S LOVE shining to us and through us . . . all the time! Moments of gratitude, time and time again.